Shattered Skies

くそ!

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 03:59:56 GMT

Japanese is a hard language, but I'm teaching myself as best I can, becuase I feel like it will open alot of doors as far as flying oppurtunities are concerned. I would much rather be a corporate pilot, because I don't think I'll ever be the type of person who could afford to travel on my own, so it would be nice to have the chance to see the world a bit. I would love to be able to just quit my job and fly for even pocket change.

ありがとうございます

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 01:56:30 GMT

Every week I dread the weekends. I hate work. Mostly I hate working with Paula. she hates me just because we have to split tips on the nights we work together.In reality I should hate her, because she was stealing from me before the managers started splitting our tips, but I don't.It just sucks, she's nice to all the servers because she wants them to tip her more; as for me, she couldn't be more of a bitch. I work ten times harder than her and make less every night.Why? Because she subtly clocks in earlier and earlier, while clocking out later and later;so at the end of the night she looks like she worked longer. I wouldn't ever do that. As much as I hate to admit, it's not fair to do to her. She has to be one of the most selfish poeple I've met. It makes me sick. I asked to be a server last week. The only thing on my mind is affording my car....without having to go through this hassle every week. What really grinds my gears is that I've been asking to be a server for the past 6 months, but have been put off. I'm pretty capable-I fly planes WTF! I just want to afford college that's all. Other than work I've been flying ALOT. I've manage to pass fourteen lessons straight without having to repeat any. That's a record for me! That leaves me with five lessons before the practical exam: three night flights, a cross-country, and a six-hour solo. I'm actually unsure about where to go; I'll have to think about that one.

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Sat, 03 Oct 2009 05:23:41 GMT

My life is so frustrating lately. Flying is my only release, and since I'm going it alone more these days I can relax and enjoy the scenery. spins are probably the most fun I can think off.When the plane stops flying and begins to spin towards the ground, it's a sensory experience. The earth begins to blur, and the airframe shakes and creeks accompanied by my breathing through the mic. Pulling up, causes my weight to triple and drains the blood from my head toward my feet as my vision fades. It's surreal being taught to be completely content, as my plane literally falls from the sky, but it makes me feel alive.

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 05:50:20 GMT

My trip to Rhode Island pretty much confirmed what I already knew; New England is really boring. I could take a trip to all four corners of New England and would see the same scenery; plazas and maybe some ocean. what would my ideal trip be? probably Japan. And for anyone who doubts my decision I have one phrase: Walking robot vending machines! but in all seriousness, I hope in the future flying opens enough doors for me to travel, becuase I don't I would otherwise afford it. It's just that I feel like the scenery never changes around here; I don't want to pay for this expensive education and then settle down the street from my parents. I want to be a tourist.

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 03:34:39 GMT

Hmmmm sweet victory and chocolate milk; I call that a win-win

well,

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 05:33:35 GMT

I think I found my calling

WTF indeed.

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 02:29:19 GMT

I haven't worked in 3 weekends. I'm literally the only one from NYAJ's Lexington that hasn't gotten a transfer yet. well, technically I got transferred to Burlington, but thats a rant for another time. and that time is now. Okay several weeks before the place closed I went in to Burlington to introduce myself and start getting ready to transfer. I went in at 11:30-shoot me, I didn't know it would be so packed just 30 minutes after opening up. The manager said something like "yeah this is my first impression of you and I'll probably remember that you came in at lunch hour...but I'm a nice guy" From my experience if someone says they're a nice guy, they usually aren't. at any rate, my manager wrote me a really great review, and recomended that I train to serve so I felt better about the transfer. the week it closed, I called up and scheduled to meet my new manager again. When I got there I expected to talk about training, instead he told me that he wouldn't schedule me until te patio was built. when I called a week later assuming it was built he fed me a line about it being built but not registered,when I asked for a few lunches he said that he already staffed them. like what the hell?! I'm being forced to compete with the other bussers, they should have to compete with me. At any rate my mother was in wayside commons today and saw an ad for fathers day patio seating. I decided to call. when I did he fed me some bullshit about the town making them put up barriers. so now it's apparent that he's trying to avoid hiring me. like what the hell? who gets their kicks,in this economy, depriving someone-a college student afterall-of work. Like who does that? so I decided that this weekend I'll check to see if they actually did end up opening the patio this weekend,then I'm calling corporate. It's going on 3 weekends without work. considering I usually make about $150 in cash each weekend and have a bi-weekly paycheck of about $90, I essentially lost almost $600 because this guy has something against me. and normally I would be able to hold off. before last week I had about $450, except my excise task for both my old and new car s came in, and the about the rest-about 200 went towards recording expenses. This entire EP is almost $1000. I managed to spend it all in just 2 of the 5 recording sessions. And we still need another session to finish the vocals. So all in all I couldn't have lost my job at a more inconveniant time. this sucks

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 02:12:41 GMT

I've got a pilot's liscense and no where to go.

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 02:12:51 GMT

sunday night simultaneously made/ruined my week it seems

Tue, 26 May 2009 05:28:48 GMT

mark bailed on another practice...this makes four in the past two weeks. remind me when the show is again? OHYEAHJUNE5TH!apparently his basement flooded and his car ran out of power steering fluid? so yeah that leaves us at a loss yet again.Not to mention paul is recovering from that oral surgery which may also complicate things.These next few weeks are going to killer as far as making sure this show actually goes the way it's supposed to, finishing school, handling the restuarant closing, and applying for that scholarship my parents have been nagging me about. I just want to have days off so I can relax, possibly work on that side project I've been writing for. And I'm frustrated with school. The winds make my flying look sloppy, not to mention I had no idea how much I have to study for the practical. Who would think that 3 simple flights would actually turn out to be a huge pain in the ass. And it sucks watching kids who started in the fall going on there checkrides all last week. Granted, I didn't start until last may and my first 2 instructors were real hard asses, but I'm really behind. My instructor told me to make tommorrows flight 'fun'; that's tough actually, I should work on that

Injustice.

Fri, 15 May 2009 03:13:54 GMT

Last night I went to the gym, a couple minutes after leaving I got a call from my cousin; he was finally home from college so I decided to go over for a bit. By the time I got there he was having a huge fight with his sister over the car,so we decided to take my car instead and head back to my house. Before we left my aunt made me a freezer pizza for the road. Along the way Ryan was venting about his sister and I was eating my pizza. When we were about a block away from my house near the corner of Augusta's I saw flashing lights;I wasn't speeding, my lights were on and all my stickers were current-I had no idea what I did. The officer barely grabbed my liscense before he said "level with me, have you been smoking or drinking tonight?" I politely told him I didn't I also told him I don't do anything because I go to flight school. he said "yeah...right" and walked off. I whispered to my cousin "great, he thinks I'm bullshitting him" he came back and asked me to get out of the vehicle.I was really nervous at this point so I forgot to put my car in gear and pull the E-brake; the car rolled back like an inch before I caught it but he yelled "wanna not roll into my fucking cruiser!" I fixed it and got out.I thought to myself 'hey this should go pretty quick, just show this prick I can walk a straight line and touch my nose and he'll let me go. famous last words. he made me walk a line, follow a pen with my eyes, made me stand on one foot(I could have went all day). after a while he got sort of impatient and told me to sit down on the curb while he radioed for backup. BACKUP SERIOUSLY?! he kept asking me what I really do for school, despite the fact that my gym shorts said 'Embry-Riddle Aeronautical University' and I had a flight bag in my back seat, but whatever all 20 year olds are lying junkies. You would also suspect that they would search my car or give me a breatalizer,or even test my cousin but I just guessed the truth gets in the way of arresting people. Anyway the other officer finally came. He was a real cutup;as soon as soon as he walked up he said "so how much of the grass did you smoke tonight?!"funnnnyyyy he then said "you know most people who smoke experience paranoia" like really, do you expect a 20 year old, who has never been in trouble and has a career that can suffer greatly from this sort of thing to be completely comlacent? They asked me if I took any prescriptions to get high. NO I'M A PILOT;I won't even take a claritin for my allergies. 'that's the story he's sticking to I guess' UGHHHH. The second officer left. I sat on the curb thinking "this is it; I'm going to lose my career over a mistake" he told me to get back in the car. After another fifteen minutes he came back with a warning for the 'traffic infraction'. After driving a few streets away toward my house I lost it. I began wailing on my steering wheel, my cousin had to calm me down. I got to my house slammed the car door and walked up to my house pushing over an iron planter along the way. When I got in the house I told my mom the whole story, she hit the roof; she couldn't believe how they treated us. I'm convinced that my new car is just a cop magnet. I didn't believe my mom when I got it but now I'm starting to realise it. looking at the facts, it was almost 11 at night,two kids in a Black 2009 Civic Coupe with a spoiler and a stick. JACKPOT. What's worse is I know for a fact that if a parent or grandparent were in the passenger seat there would be no trouble. Ughh I'm tired everyday I lose a little more faith in humanity.

ALOT

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 00:36:51 GMT

I don't much feel like writing out everythings that's been going on in the past few weeks, so I'll post a few phots from my solo on friday:

Sick!

The City of Amherst,I'm guessing hungover college kids don't like airplane noise.

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 04:14:03 GMT

okay alot to cover! first and formost...my dad had a heart attack friday-it was only minor and he came home tonight but this is his fourth heart-related issue. But as far as I know he's doing fine, but it sucks when this shit happens. Since then I've been flying twice a day almost every day. I finally got my night flight done, right past the Boston/Providence skylines. Night flights are so much more fun than day flights anyday. Tommorrows my 3 hour solo hopefully; which leaves me with only 3 flights after that before my checkride! okay the main thing on my mind right now is the band. We've been making music for about 6 months and I like to think we've gone pretty far song wise, but wtf A thousand paper cranes has been together about a month or so and they will have already played more shows by the time we play in may. Some debut this is going to be I was hoping that by the time we played our first show our EP would be out and there would be some hype but things always work out that way. I always wanted to be in a respectable band and it sucks feeling the shadow of these other bands.

myspace.com/cadencyrock

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 01:54:29 GMT

okay so I managed to find a good day to take the stage check. It went well. I made it to the airport pretty easy. after taking off for home, he diverted me to sterling after a missed approach I made it down....could have went better. Ah well all in all I passed. But this weather is killer. I'm supposed to take a night flight but I can't find a decent night. I was pretty pumped about it because I would be cutting right past the boston skyline. at any rate I got to school and we decided to use the sim. What a disaster! the simulator flys like a shopping cart with one bad wheel. ughh I know I can fly but the sim is different. It's just a frustrating experiance and nothing went right,so I'm dwelling on it a bit. ughh My dad has been working nights for a week now. It sucks. basically it sounds like a babysitting job; making sure kids my age pull and process warehouse items. just blows. oh we have what is shaping up to be our first show in may. I'm pumped!

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 03:26:48 GMT

Today was interesting. Just a practice flight but a challenging one either way. About a mile from the airspace my instructor said "your wing's on fire, now what" uhhh okay I fixed it....well "pretend" fixed it...okay we went out to the southwest a little farther then "uh, engine fire" *fix* "oh great now you're engine's dead* *try to restart* "oh no you just fed the flames"....uhhhhhh....well I simulated the emergency landing. okay we recovered and then "oh shit, you're engines dead again!" ("ah c'mon!" fixed it) okay level 3000 westbound "guess what" "what" "you just lost your engine!" same drill....okay "head back to nashua" *phew*........."I just cut you're engine again!" ("what the hell?!") okay okay fixed it one last time. then my instructor showed me a cross-control stall. we got a rotation out of it. the skyhawk doesn't really like to spin. it was cool...we just headed back to practice short and softfield landings/takeoffs. I passed so I'm on for the checkride friday (rain). it was fun. we actually took a girl who needed an observation ride for the air traffic control program. it was interesting-especially due to the context of the lesson. It kind of had a different dynamic-I got a whole other perspective of how ATC would react in an emergency. Ah well. All seven songs are finished so we're jusdt waiting to record and play live.

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 05:25:44 GMT

It's a tiny bit frustrating that one of my buddies manages to attract like every girl. Basically he's talking to about three girls. Okay I understand that what he's doing is pretty shallow, but WTF can't at least one girl talk to me? NOPE! yeah that makes me look forward to the band playing shows; he'll probably be swarmed, at any rate the band is finally ready to record and play shows. We finished our last song today and since jay is on tour until june we have time to get mark used to everything. Not to mention he'll have time for his arm to heal. today was much to windy to fly so I'm hoping to go wednesday it'll be warm and friday is looking good for the stage-check. I mentioned to my instructor that I needed to get my last 8 flights done asap so I'm sure we'll figure something out. I just hope I can get everything done before summer

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 15:15:25 GMT

it's so windy and cold out right now. I'm heading up to try to fly right now. Hope it works...

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 05:46:26 GMT

Flying can be a love-hate thing. Right now I love it. I have 8 lessons left and I just want to grab some sky and hit them head on. my instructor was sick friday. I found another but we decided that I should wait for my instructor. It was a wasted nice day. Outside of that the band is ready to record...mark apparently hurt his arm and won't be able to play drums for a while so hopefully he's fine by mid next month. I'm struggling to think of what to write outside flying and the band without venturing onto the topic of girls. wowee nothing really has been happening lately. I need adventure.

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Tue, 17 Mar 2009 02:50:08 GMT

I woke up today to my sister telling me my father had lost his job. I thought she was joking. Last month my dad read me an E-mail from his company explaining that sales were up and there was no need for any positions to be cut. He was the only one in the branch that lost his position.The only alternative he had was to volunteer as the warehouse manager at the company he works. The down side: he lost his blackberry, laptop, company car and his new position takes place from 7pm to 2am. Apparently there isn't difference in pay, but the hours suck.Not to mention my dad has a heart condition-I hate the idea of him working in a warehouse. Luckily he'll be a manager and won't expect heavy lifting but it's such a shitty outcome for someone who invested 16 years of his time.He's one of the hardest working people I know so the news is a deffinite thorn in my side. After hearing the news I didn't want to fly today. But then I realized that I owe it to my parents to make the most of every chance I have to fly so I don't end up costing extra money. I hit the ground running today and the flight went well. My instructor was all in all pretty impressed by my flying. I stayed on course and on altitude for the entire trip and my checkpoints were lining up with all the times I had planned.At some point we diverted to Claremont. After finding the airport I flew what was probably the hardest pattern I've experienced. After a go-around my instructor offered to take the landing. We landed and took off for Nashua. He told me to use my instrument goggles the rest of the trip. Oddly enough the course I was flying would take me right down to the runway about 45 miles away. Since I was holding all of my inputs pretty well he let me shoot an intrument landing approach. It was so cool! And for a pilot at my stage it's kind of a rarity for me to do something like that. One more lesson and then a mock check ride. I'm close.

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 03:05:38 GMT

I got my wisdom teeth taken out today. It sucks. I also opted to have the tendon underneath my tongue cut; ever since I was young I had a small speach impediment and hopefully got it fixed. So mainly I'm in alot of pain not only becuase of the 4 gaping holes in my jaw but also when I try to talk I can feel every stitch under my tongue. I was pretty nervous about the appointment today. I wasn't expecting them to use an EKG and in all honesty the sound it made alot more nervous-especially since it directly related to my heartrate. At any rate they hooked me up to the IV and said something like "you're gonna start to feel kinda strange" and the last thing I remember is saying "shit, you're absolutely right" ha so 12 hours later I'm here and on an all liguid diet

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 00:40:22 GMT

Not much to say. I flew today. Not with the school but at the flight club in Nashua. During the winter break, I took a flight and the instructor I had was from Japan-he used to train USAF pilots in Okinawa,if I remember the location right. At any rate my grandparents wanted me to have another flight with him this week. I thought it was a good idea because I wanted to practice simulated engine failures before my school stage check. The flight went well. I remembered my spare headset so my grandfather managed to hear while we were up there. The flight went really well. We flew to Keene and to Gardner and back to Nashua. Along the way he cut my engine; I managed it pretty well actually. We headed back to Nashua and did two landings. My first was perfect...the second one was lined up but I kinda ran out of momentum a little higher off the ground then I hoped and it wasn't as smooth, but still pretty decent. Afterwards Taka told my grandfather that my school was pretty strict and if it were a check ride he would have passed me. Good to know. I just want a good stretch of warm weather so I can finish the last 8 flights of the course. That would be great.

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 04:36:53 GMT

The weather is going to be a mess tommorrow. SO I'm most likely just going to school to come back home. Not to mention My instructor is going to be away anyway. Next week I'm on vacation. My grandparents are buying me a flight outside of school so I'll probably go out and practice in-flight emergencies. It will give me a chance to show my grandfather how I fly. Since I forgot my spare headet the last time we went my grandafther didn't get to hear my radio calls. I'll remember them this time. In my spare time I've been recording music. I have myself a nice little side project outside of the band. HAHA my sister is going to a Fall Out Boy concert. Being an older sibling who's already been through high school, I obviously tormented her over it. I eventually printed out a list of every song ever by them and when she noticed it I was like "hey does that look familiar?? nahh it doesn't sorry for wasting your time" ha at some point I resorted to the stewie (family guy) "you workin' on that novel??" voice ha "you goin' to fall out boy? gonna have a good time? In the end you'll be richer for the experience???? music and lyrics by fall out boy??????" ha it was quite effective. ha they suck. I need the weather to be more reliable

"...where's the clutch in this thing?"

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 07:22:40 GMT

Wednesday it finally happened. I woke up and it was cloudy but pretty warm by the time I made it to school, the clouds were breaking. I wrote up my flight plan and waited for my instructor. Since it had been such a while since I flew, I had to take a lap around the pattern with him. got that overwith and went back inside to fill out the paperwork. Filed my flight plan and headed for Maine. after starting up I made a call to taxi to the runway. Go figure the radio was in a setting I was unfamiliar with and couldn't understand why it wasn't working. I switched radios and tried again. I told myself that If I couldn't figure it out I wouldn't takeoff. Luckily I fixed it and was able to takeoff. It was so nice out!the atlantic looked so blue, and you could see the mountains coming up through the mist in the distance. I got there parked and ran across the lot to close my plan and takeoff again. The flight went well. afterwards I went to guitar center to buy recording stuff...it's making the whole osng process so easy.

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 04:34:08 GMT

Yesteday it snowed.Today was gusty. Really gusty actually, when I got to school I opened the door to the car I was surprised by how windy it was. My intructor took a sick day. Wouldn't have mattered either way. Friday is warm but possibly rainy. Wednesday might be my only shot,but there's always the the chance it won't work out. It sucks to kind of have an idea of what to expect and already know I won't be flying. I'm ready either way. Today was pre-recording. It was frustrating and we were all resenting the idea. All in all the three of us sent texts back and forth about how we didn't like how paul seems to run the show lately. At any rate I ended up going to the gym an hour before closing just to blow off some steam and ended up running into paul. Not what I wanted but I managed to cool down and talk to him about it. Let's just hope things work out

"...out like a lamb"

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 17:55:29 GMT

okay a week without flyable weather is an inconvenience, two weeks is rediculous, so I'm hoping I won't have to go a third week without flying. I feel like it gets windy for a huge span of time in between seasons-so I'm hoping the winds calm down soon. A "no-go;weather" day is just a wasted day, and I'm trying to make them count. lately my conversations with my instructor have been reduced to weather briefs-I feel like more of a meteorologist than a pilot at this point. I'm hoping wednesday is nice. If it's not windy I have to worry about cloud ceilings where I am and where I'm trying to go-another potential game ruiner. All in all, it's a pretty frustrating stage. If I had my liscense I could go up on a gusty day. If I had an instrument rating I wouldn't worry as much about clouds-other than icing. If I did stay in Daytona I would probably have more nice days to work with, but at this point I'm just trying to play the hand I'm dealt.